Thursday, April 25, 2013

Rising Above Disappointment

So, this morning I broke my No Yelling streak. :( I made it 10 days, and I am super excited about that...but I am super disappointed about breaking it. Not only about yelling at my child, but because I really didn't think I yelled at all...SC says that's my opinion. I guess this is one of those times my opinion doesn't hold as much weight as I would like... I agreed I was not very respectful to my daughter and perhaps could have handled it differently, but I was not convinced I "blew it." Sigh. To say I am bummed is an understatement.



I was doing so well...so I am frustrated to have to start over. I was a little angry because I am not convinced SC was right...my bum is bummed because it was spanked over it.  I don't get full punishments for yelling at the kids, just a few swats. This morning I think SC knew how super disappointed about it I was and went really easy on me. I can't remember the last time he spanked me with just his hand. In all fairness to myself I thought I handled my disagreeing with him over it really respectfully and accepted the punishment gracefully even though I disagreed...that's a silver lining I guess...

So this is the part where the rubber meets the road...where the all or nothing part of me gets challenged. Since I failed (though I really didn't, since I completed more than my original goal of 7 days!) will I be able to pick myself up and continue to see how long I can go next time?

I need to move on and step up. This is important. I know that..I want it...I just need to get over my disappointment and rise above! It's just h.a.r.d.

I am sunburned and tired...have a crazy weekend facing me and a possible breach of procrastination to deal with...ugh...perhaps overcoming is overrated...

Perhaps I will take up pessimism... ;)

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  1. I know you are disappointed... I would be too! Don't forget to celebrate your accomplishment though! You are making great progress!!! :)

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    1. Thank you. And you are right, I am making great progress! :)

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  2. You didn't fail, you hit a bump in the bonus round :)
    You set out for seven days, and you went 10! I'm pretty sure Mrs. Brady was the only mom to never yell at her kids...oh and I guess the 19 Kids mom. You should be proud of yourself, and the fact that you're worried about *yelling* at your kids and are trying to correct it shows that you are a great parent.
    Success is not an absence of failure, it is picking yourself up and trying again. :) You made it to 7 days, but you made it 10. Try for 14. Then 21. You'll get there :)

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    1. Thank you! I love that...the bonus round. :) I really just want to be the best mom I can be and be the polar opposite of my own mother in this area...but I am getting there! Thanks for the encouragement!

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  3. I think you should celebrate that you made 10 days, that's great! And if you disagree that you were yelling, that just means you probably didn't react and yell at your daughter like you would have in the past. Don't be to disappointed, it's a kids job to push our buttons and there very good at it!
    Kim

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    1. I hadn't thought of that..great point. I am improving... I need to focus on that! Ad yes, they are very good at pushing it huh?!? Lol

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  4. You know what, you're spending too much time on the negative. Pick yourself right back up!! move on! Find the joy in what you accomplished and in that, you'll have strength to do it again. Better this time! Have you thought of wearing one of those bracelets and keeping it on the right hand and then switching to the left when you have to start over again? Or something like that. Good luck!

    M.

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    1. Very true...thanks. I had considered a bracelet of sorts to remind me not to yell...I think moving it when I mess up might depress me! Lol I do need to focus on the improvement though, thanks!

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  5. I know exactly how you feel. Theres something about challenges that are great at the time we take them on. But, at the end of it, we always feel slightly disappointed. Pick yourself up and continue, but does it need to be a challenge you set? Can it just be a doing the best I can situation?

    Callie

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    1. So true Callie... You know, there is this weird thing about challenges..I like them because I feel like I am doing what I need to do because I want to and not because of a looming spanking...emotionally I love that, but perhaps there is more to that emotionally that I need to consider a little more...thanks!

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  6. Try not to see it as a disappointment but that you met your goal and now you get to aim even higher. You got 100% plus 3 gold stars for extra credit. This time you could set your goal for two weeks or try to double the 10 days and aim for 20. Congrats on making your goal and good luck on the next one :)

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    1. Thank you! Perspective is everything, huh?! I definitely plan to try again and aim a little higher...just need to get over the fear of failure first! Lol

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  7. Aww, (((hugs))) don't be so hard on yourself. You are doing great! We all slip and fall but look what a good job you did for the 10 days and how you reacted to your punishment. You can do it. You can! :)

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    1. Thank you! It really was a great accomplishment! :)

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  8. I agree with the others, that this was a win. As you continue to practice, it will get easier. You've already proved yourself. Pat yourself on the back for the 10 WHOLE DAYS, rather than that one little slip. God bless you and all you love, Belle L.

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    1. Thank you. Very true.10 days is great! I need to focus on that! :)

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  9. First, your blog is so pretty!

    Second...I get awfully disappointed with myself too. I think focusing on one thing is good...like not yelling but don't worry so much about how long you can go. Just do your best, one day at a time.

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    1. Awww so sweet thanks! :) yes, focusing on one small goal at a time really helps. Less overwhelming! ;)

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