We did the clap test the first night in the cabin and it failed by epic proportions . . . so I was S.A.F.E. (So Absolutely Free Except---the part where we come home!) ACK.
Actually I managed to keep surprising control without serious consequences this past week. SC was definitely not inconsistent. He gave warnings, the "look", a few squeezes here and there, and yes, random swats when we were alone...but even though I am sure I crossed the respect line a few times, I made it home with only a "healthy maintenance" session to look forward to. "Healthy maintenance?!?" What in the world does that mean?!?! It doesn't sound....delightful. At. All.
I did get spanked a little this morning for some attitude...with a warning that tonight he would be reestablishing rules and roles. : / That just sounds....ick. Too much like reality.
I am missing my spank free cabin in the mountains....
It wouldn't be so bad if it was just maintenance...but this is "healthy maintenance" <insert growling stare here> Oh, and did I mention I have had a REALLY rude awakening of reality today? It has been a rougher than rough day. Somewhere along the road today I think I just stopped caring...thinking well, I am already in super trouble....I doubt it could get any worse...
Trying to get those lovely little people in my house back to reality to finish some schoolwork today was ummmm challenging. And I failed the challenge. :(
All of a sudden I am yearning for "healthy maintenance."
Ugh. Yesterday while I certainly wasn't looking forward to being spanked, I WAS looking forward to that reconnecting we would have...the reassertion of roles I knew we needed...but now? Now I am dreading tonight.
I totally need a redo, not a rude reckoning of rules, roles, and reality.
Coming home from a wonderful vacation is ALWAYS hard :( Having to face "reality" again is a bummer and when we have to deal with getting our little ones back in sync, it can be especially taxing.
ReplyDeleteI hope that your "healthy maintenance" is more reaffirmation and a good reconnection for you. Then your "reality" will be a good place to be.
((hugs))
Cali
Reality was rough..but it is over and we ARE reconnected. I am glad for that! :)
DeleteWelcome back from vacation! I'm glad you had a great time and a spank free vacation. Sometimes it is difficult to get back in the routine Of things and I'm sure It is with DD also. Healthy maintenance?!? I'm not sure if I want to experience that one. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteKim
Thanks! Coming back was TOUGH and believe me, you don't want to experience it! Ack!
DeleteWell first off, i'm glad you had such a good vacation! Plus the vacation from spankings lol.
ReplyDeleteI dreaded the first spanking after vacation too, but in reality, I needed that reconnection so badly, that the spanking wasn't that bad. I hope it's exactly the reconnection you need!
Yeah, a regular reconnection spanking would have been ok, but I was punished on top of it...:( ugh but we are reconnected and in the end that is all that matters! :)
DeleteI'm glad you had such a wonderful vacation. It takes time to settle back into real life, I always struggle with it. Here's to hoping you get there soon ;)
ReplyDeleteCallie
Sometimes the reset button gets stuck...so it is a hard push...but I did get there! ;)
DeleteI'm glad you had such a great vacation! Good luck getting back into reality!! Hope you find that reconnection soon! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks! I am glad to be reconnected! :)
Delete"Healthy Maintenance" That sounds exactly like something my husband would say. His favorite one is that I need to be "thoroughly maintained." Maybe don't mention that to your hubby! LOL.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get all nice and connected.
Oh it was thorough alright! Eek! But it's over.. Lol
DeleteWelcome back! Glad your trip was so wonderful :) We took a wonderful trip a few months back which was actually the catalyst that helped us get back on the DD road and the road to marital recovery. We plan to do another one at the end of summer. It's so fun and then it is so hard to come back isn't it. I know I always wish that the vacation was our real life. I wish we could stay on vacation forever... soaking in the sun and the sand, the waves of the ocean, the lovely dinners and the even lovlier after dinner part with just me and StrongMan... Sigh
ReplyDeleteVacation as real life ...sounds lovely! :)
DeleteGlad you had a good vacation and managed to stay out of trouble during it. :)
ReplyDeleteIt's never easy to go back to things after a vacation. Who wants to adjust to the stress of life right when you are in a vacation mindset? Glad you got reconnected, even if it was probably a bit painful :)
painful yes...reconnected yes. :) worth it! :)
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