A few weeks of a rough patch, feeling rather disconnected, and me feeling rather off in my submission, led us to a mini- boot camp, boss weekend but not quite weekend experience. We only had 24 hours, we haven't even read the boot camp books, so I dubbed the experience a "stay-mission"-- A submission staycation.
I drove the kids to my parents, came and picked up SC and we headed to the grocery store. I say I picked him up, but really as soon as I pulled into the driveway, he kicked me out of the driver's seat..he's kind of controlling like that...
We grabbed what we needed and headed home. I was pretty nervous. We hadn't talked about expectations or rules for the time ... I handed over my phone when we got into the parking lot assuming that would be an expectation. I kept glancing nervously at him. Questioning. He just smiled.
As we got home and I started making dinner...we thought making dinner together at home would be better that going out...give us something to do together, and offer more privacy. I think it was way more awkward than it should have been!
(hindsight is 20/20 and we definitely should have talked more about expectations!)
After dinner he laid out the plan.
(hindsight is 20/20 and we definitely should have talked more about expectations!)
After dinner he laid out the plan.
- I had to ask for permission for everything. (drink of water, bathroom, etc)
- He planned 4 spankings in that 24 hour period (I ended up earning two extra making the total 6)
- I was to use "sir" the entire time. (He only usually requires this during punishments)
- A complete submissive attitude was the goal.
- Internet/phone was limited. (He had my phone and pretty much said no any time I asked to use it or the ipad).
- There would be a zero tolerance policy on respect
- Immediate obedience would be expected, and some things would not be easy
- He picked out my genre of clothing (or lack thereof...not sure lingerie is considered clothing????)
Conclusion?
It was tough! Four spankings in a short time was tough! And having 2 extra in there was tougher!
Apparently I needed an extreme reset to get me to find that submissive place. I must have been far gone. Of course it has been awhile and apparently that submissive me didn't stick around....oops.
I definitely think the experience was a good one. I definitely could have done without the last "it could always be worse" spanking. ACK.
I appreciated the level of dominance he displayed. I originally thought such an experience would freak me out, but I felt so close to him and so loved and cherished.
I certainly could never live day to day with that level of control, but I can certainly see the benefit of a weekend like this here and there.
Sorry for the lack of details...it was a while ago! I need to be better about this blogging thing!
Cole,
ReplyDeleteI hope your mini boot camp set your world to rights. Lean in to him and all will be well.
Meredith
I'm glad it was so beneficial for you guys. Maybe RA to keep the submission? I'm thinking we need RA around here but wish he would bring it up . There is like no maintenance unless I ask :(
ReplyDeleteSo glad I could actually read your post. This whole no Internet thing almost killed me this week :P
Hugs,
Tricia
I'm glad you had a good weekend Cole. I'm not sure id want 4 spankings in 24 hours either, but 6? Wow. Kudos to you girl!
ReplyDeleteCallie
I hope your mini boot camp keeps your mind in that submissive place. I often wonder if that would work for us but not sure if I want to bring it up. 6 spankings, ouch!
ReplyDeleteKim
I'm glad you feel you benefitted from this.
ReplyDeleteI can see how it would be so good for my mindset too, but I am far too much of a coward to suggest such a thing, plus no iPad would actually put an end to me I think!
I'm so glad you had such a great experience! I can totally relate to having moments of feeling less than submissive, and then knowing I'm so far gone..trying to get back can be hard. SO happy you felt cherished and loved, makes it all worth it..including the "it could be worse" spanking Agh!! :) Love ya!!
ReplyDeleteWe tried to do this once but I managed to ruin it nicely. I am glad it went much better for you (even with the added spankings) Miss reading your posts. Hope you will find time to do more. Understandable that life makes this a challenge at times.
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sara :)
Reset days, or mini-one-day-bootcamps work pretty good here too. Glad it work out for you guys. :)
ReplyDeleteWe did a boot camp once, a lot of the same things you did. It can be really good for a reset, but you're right, that level of control every day would be maddening. :) So glad that it helped you guys out. :) And no worries that you couldn't post about it right away, sometimes life is busy, and sometimes you just need time to process. :)
ReplyDelete{{{hugs}}} EsMay
I love how you guys tailored it to you, and that even though it was hard to take, it seems to have done its job! Sounds like it went well. :)
ReplyDeleteThat "It could always be worse spanking," is horrible isn't it?